I had the BEST time going through the letters the kids wrote before mailing them off to the A Million Thanks Organization . A part of my then job was to pick out a mission for the kids. Every quarter I chose some type of mission to help the kids put feet to their faith. This one was probably my most favorite. Why? Because I got to see the children’s interpretation of what they were receiving from God through the lessons every week. They poured out their hearts on paper, wrote some of the most sweetest, inspiring and FUNNY little letters and cards I have ever read. A million little pictures, letters and homemade cards for me to pour through and bundle up to deliver to unsuspecting soldiers.
I took a picture of this one for a few reasons. First, it’s so stinkin’ cute. “Vally Creak”?! Com’on! That’s precious. Also because the child that wrote it, was telling the super blessed soldier that was going to receive this letter how much he/she loved our church. My thoughts exactly sweet kiddo. I love “Vally Creak” too.
That’s why the past few months have been so hard. I knew this was going to change me. Stepping off staff has been one of the hardest things I have ever done. It really was my dream job. I had influence over nearly 1,000 kids every single weekend. Incredible. Something I’d prayed for after I gave my life to Christ. He intrusted me with this assignment and when He said it was time to move on, my heart broke.
It was through a four month process when I realized a part of why He was calling me away.
On January 1, 2015 I woke up at my mother’s house at 5:00am to the smell of fresh cut grass and a picture in my mind of barefoot feet walking through some beautifully green grass. Then I heard the Lord say to me “In His heart, a man plans His course, but the Lord orders his steps.” Proverbs 16:9. A little bit confused, I fell back asleep and didn’t really think much more about it.
After returning home and getting back into our post holiday routine, we attended the first service of the new year at church. In this message titled “First” (give it a listen sometime…good stuff!) a certain scripture was shared. Betcha can guess which one…yep, Proverbs 16:9. God gave me further revelation and showed me that I had been doing things my own way for a while, and it was time to give Him back the job of leading and controlling my life.
So much easier said than done! The next few months were spent in deep prayer and many conversations with my husband and trusted friends. The end result? God was asking me to step down from my dream job to take a season of rest and receiving. Something I’ve NEVER done before.
August 27, 2015 was my last day on staff at Valley Creek. One of the most challenging, joy filled, spiritually growing jobs I have ever had. I miss a part of it every day. Now that I am into my 4th month of learning how to receive, I know I made the right decision to “follow the cloud”, and it does get better as time goes on, but I miss it. I miss the people, the mission, and the joy of bringing the gospel message to hundreds of kids every weekend.
This new adventure has already taught me countless lessons that I wouldn’t have been able to receive had I ignored God and stayed, so I wouldn’t trade a single second of it for anything, but it has been hard. I look forward to writing future blog posts about these lessons. So, stay tuned for more!
In the meantime, I want to say…A million thanks to God, for knowing my heart, and for asking me to let go of the good so I can receive the great. A million thanks to my VCC friends/former co-workers and leaders, you guys amaze me and your hearts for Jesus are so contagious! And to my family and closest friends…A million thanks for praying along side of me, supporting me and talking this WHOLE entire process out with me (even still) as I’ve gone through the incredible ups and downs in this past season. I can’t wait to see how this thing ends and what incredible blessings He’ll have for us all in it!